Sharing an experience I had after the November Commanding Wealth circle at Bonnie’s where I was commanding for an annoying situation to finally be over.
After the supportive statements at the circle this evening when we were absorbing and enjoying our support I saw myself embracing my freedom and I felt a little panicked for a moment so I asked for guidance and I saw myself in a huge sea of water and I was there treading water realizing that I could go in any direction I wanted to.
That is really what these past few years have taught me. Since I was a young girl I have been “trapped” by my great jobs that have paid me well. I truly have suppressed all of my dreams of travel and adventure, of taking risks. I was living and fulfilling the dream of the average American and I didn’t know how I could start over. Basically, I couldn’t afford to stop working in sales and live on a teacher’s salary. I didn’t know how. I was saddled with the bills that come with living this “dream” and from my small perspective I couldn’t break free.
The truth is that my spirit knows so much more than I do and no matter how I tried to fit into this limited (but fulfilling for many) lifestyle it just wasn’t working. No matter how for out there my dreams got, my fears held me back. I could crush a dream with my fear so quickly that I nearly forgot that I dreamt it. OUCH! That one hurts a bit, even just to type it. Forgotten dreams…I miss them and mourn them, even the ones I can’t remember. What is that? The optimism of my youth? The belief that anything is possible? I don’t know how I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that anything is possible, I only know that it is now and I am fulfilled.
So, there I am floating in the Sea of Possibility and I am panicking because I don’t know which way to go and I feel this tremendous anchor of my past release and it floats to the bottom of the sea, or wherever it goes when I am done with it (It doesn’t matter what happens to the words after you close the book, the story is only what you remember it to be). Anyhow, once this burden was finally dropped and I wasn’t holding onto that very heavy anchor, I stayed there a moment treading water, looking around and enjoying the view. I saw a strong current flowing just a short distance from where I was treading water and I knew which way to go. I also knew that once I reached that current I would be moving very quickly toward my destination.
I don’t know how I am quickly, easily and gently flowing in the current of my magnificent brilliant life, I only know that I am now and I am fulfilled.
Ahhhh…….
I also realized on the way home that I could do the same thing for my weight. Just drop the anchor, the emotional baggage and the bad food choices and get in the current toward my excellent health.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment